This is one of the most embarrassing things I've grappled with for the past decade or so...I've never not struggled financially as an adult. Money has felt like a portal to filling in the gaps. I hoped that, if I presented a certain way or showered people with abundance, they would finally see me and accept me. Every time money flowed to me, I found every which way but Sunday to get rid of it. At the ripe age of 18, I was thrust into adulthood during a recession. After being